It's odd, I made my decision and I have to stick with it this time and I made it because I hope it will make me happier but I'm worried that I will never be able to fully let go of what I had.

It's odd to be completely happy with one person but to still love another. I sort of feel like I'm betraying them both.

All I want is to be happy, but I sometimes wonder whether I will be as happy as I used to be.
Before Septemeber I was a different person. I was happy, cheerful, never worried and then I was left alone and I am now more introverted and despite my cheerful exterior I am far more scared and worry more.

How can one emotion completely change someone and screw around with your head so much.
Love should make you happy no matter what but losing the person you love because you know that you can't have a long distance relationship makes it so hard.

I still dream about him and part of me hopes that when we've both finished university we'll still love each other and can start a fresh.

Probably a useless dream/fantasy and doesn't help me when I'm trying to move on but I want to hold on to every piece of him I can so I don't forget.

Sorry if I bored you but you did open it to read it and I needed to vent a bit.
Good luck on your exams if you have any.