I have been in such a bad mood that my stomach and chest actually started hurting a bit today all because Jon Dilley is a stupid bastard.

After saying he wanted to remain friends with me and didn't mind the fact i was a bit jealous of him getting close to another girl he still thought it would be funny to screw me over.

Ok, its slightly my fault, I did say she was average looking which made me feel better but I put lol at the end to show it was a joke and its an opinion and when you're jealous you need to find something to make you feel good about yourself.

So this was followed by abusive messages such as "Evie thinks you're pathetic and ugly. Which I agree with" and my personaly favourite actually from Evie saying I have nothing on her and nothing to feel good about.

I hoped that maybe it was just Evie and Jon didn't know, but no. When I rung he said yes it was him. That when he met Evie he realised how much I'd hurt him and that our friendship wasnt working. He no longer felt for me like that and so we couldn't be friends.

I'd actually said nicely the night before Evie might not like it but he said we'd be fine. Complete lie. I was so angry and upset over it because I thought my best friend here had abandoned me and in such a harsh and cruel way. I felt lower than low and he knows I have self confidence problems and he said it anyway.

Currently I really do hate him and his bitch and yet even though I know if I asked my friend Kieran he would punch him, I still want him to be happy and will seriously hurt that bitch if she does anything to him.

I think that's enough of my ranting as I needed to get it out but yeah. I hate him and if he comes crawling back to me I'm not sure I will want to be friends with him. Maybe making him feel low and shitty will make him understand.